Thoughts.

Lately, my spirit feels broken.
Despite all the love and all our recent happenings in my own life, I can't tell you how alone I feel sometimes.
So, I'm going to write.

This is the kind of post that can be applied to Sandy Hook, a personal situation, a mental battle, or just something that's getting you down.
And today, it applies to me.

I'm the kind of person who dwells.
I don't like to admit it.
I always think back to
what could I have done differently?
could I have reacted better?
why did I do that?

I know I can't change the past,
but I can change how I act in the future.
And I know I can't change what others say, do and feel,
but I can change how I respond to their actions.
Pray, love, give & pray.

Pray for hope, pray for change, pray for healing.
Love others, even more than you would love yourself.
Give—whether it's hugs, donations, or a helping hand.
And then pray for it all again.

I've had so many thoughts and realizations lately, about things that I need to change.
Things that others need to change.
Things to make this world a better place...

Never ever leave your loved one without saying goodbye. You never know if that's the last time you may see them.
Always be respectful.
Never go to bed angry—with anyone.
When praying, always give thanks for what you have before asking for more.
Never take for granted the little things.
Always say, "I love you."

No, those 6-things aren't going to change the world.
But if we—if I—do my best to follow those simple things, who knows how many others I can affect, and how wide that little ripple effect can reach.
I need to stop dwelling and start living.

When you feel alone,
when you feel broken,
when you are desperate, longing, scared, sad,
and when you feel like the rope is unraveling faster than you can climb it,
pray, love, give and pray.

The change starts now,
before this little rope of mine unravels any further.